Deployment, Marriage, and Dumpster....OH MY!

Since the Screech has been gone, I've gone through a plethora of emotions! HA...plethora is my fancy word for the day! 

Let's see...

• I played the "I'm going to be a badass" and handle this deployment like a BOSS---->All the women who independent...throw your hands up at me!!

• I ate everything but the kitchen sink after I realized I can't be the badass military wife!

• Had a mental break down when I couldn't operate the stupid weedeater and my grass grew to be about 2 feet high! 

• Lots of crying...and I'm not a pretty crier!

• I vegged out watching all of House of Cards, Orange is the New Black, and Parenthood...while eating Cherry Garcia ice cream! 

• Freaked out again when Dumpster ate some chicken wing bones...so I ate my own chicken wings!

• Hit the "OH CRAP...When did I get so squishy" weight on the scale and decide what's one more week of cheat meals!

• Started making myself happy with endorphins...AKA PIYO! 

• I felt EMPOWERED once I took back CONTROL of life!

• I stepped outside of my comfort zone and met new people...and actually had  blast doing it! <<<--------NOT MY STYLE since I'm such an introvert!

• Started waking up and deciding to be positive, being thankful for the small things and really enjoying my life.

THEN...HE sent me this picture this morning of him and "Dumpster" AKA the cardboard cutout version! 

And the tears have filled my eyes all day...not because I miss him, because I REALLY do MISS HIM, but today was the first time I thought about his roller coaster of emotions and how I, at least, have Dumpster to keep me company.

After work, he goes home to a "house" and doesn't get that "115 pound, tail wagging, let me drool all over you because I never thought you were coming home, and I'm about to pee all over you" FEELING when he walks in the door! I know he misses me deeply because he tells me everyday, but I know he misses his buddy just as much...because Dumpster likes lounging around in the garage and doesn't complain about the dishes not being done..haha!

Screech is overseas, sacrificing being away from ME and DUMPSTER, so that he can provide US the life we hope to have once he returns. With all that...he still finds a way to SMILE, be happy and thankful for this journey!

If a grown man can hold his FAKE DOG and still smile that big, I can put my big girl panties on and make everyday AWESOME!